Wednesday, May 14, 2014
Rwanda-- Week 1
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
Sophomores no more...summer is here!
Today is a big day... Two years officially in the bag. By the grace of God I am now going to be a junior! Big congrats to everyone in my nursing cohort for all the hard work that has brought us to be official nursing students now! What a blast it has been learning with each of you these past two years... I look forward to two even more exciting years! Our official EU scrubs will arrive any day in the mail now and it will be one more way to look forward to next year.
Today I bought my white uniform and Danskos and am ready to leave for Rwanda tomorrow to spend a month interning at a hospital with my dear friend, classmate, roommate (and let's be honest, sister) Claire, and spending time with my sister Emily, her fiancé Shami, and friends!!
Please follow our blog if you are interested for (hopefully) weekly updates! THANK YOU to everyone who has been supporting me and as I work my way through becoming a nurse, and for those of you who are praying for me and Claire and have financially supported us to make this trip possible. We can't say THANK YOU enough!
Happy summer everyone!
Sunday, December 15, 2013
Enns on Ecclesiastes
These are some of his words that I captured on paper.
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Week 1
Why have a job?
Meaningful life
Buy a house
What does all that matter? I'm gonna die anyway.
That's a summary of Ecclesiastes.
Enns loves this book. Because it's more honest about things than we sometimes dare to be.
Nothin matters. Everything is meaningless. No matter what all your efforts, you'll have nothing to show for it because you're gonna die. God is to blame because he set it up this way.
The authors wants this sour note.
Totally stupid. Everything is stupid.
What do we gain for our toil?
He's punching you between the eyes and grabbing you by the throat. He won't let you go. And don't write him off.
For him nature does not declare glory of God. He's having a bad day. Nature tells of the meaninglessness.
Nothing new. Don't hold on to anything because it's nothing new and nothing that will last.
Verse 11. People are not remembered after they die and this cycle won't end.
Don't find comfort too quickly.
Even family is quite forgotten! I [Anna] don't even know my paternal grandmother's name.
He wants you to be depressed and shift to this uncomfortable state.
Steve Jobs has affected a lot of us. Do we remember when he died?
Are you depressed yet? If yes, mission accomplished. And this is in the Bible. Where do you find honesty like this?
No wiggling out, no quick answer. He keeps you there for 12 chapters.
It might be surprising to learn what he says to get you out of this.
Week 2
Maybe the Israelites didn’t always have it all together.
Week 3
In a faith crisis. Absent in his life, he feels God is downright mean.
We all have cohelet moments. We are disappointed or angry when God is a no show.
What does it look like for us to keep going in these moments? What diff does it make? What diff does Jesus make?
These moments are part of our journey and communion with Christ.
Three things Enns has learned:
Whatever it is, be honest with God. We are conditioned to put on make up and pretend everything is ok for God.
Enns was a great father except for a 25 year period when he was just winging it. Hard to believe that his daughter went through a time when she didn't like him at all. What a blessing that she could be honest with him! She trusted him enough. Do I trust God enough? Do I trust his love enough to be in his face the way chohelet was?
Second thing: when God seems absent, maybe he is actually teaching you something. One of the paradoxes of the Christian faith- when he seems most distant is when he is most present.
You are not leaving God behind, you are leaving your thoughts of God behind.
Mother Teresa said no, she will not pray for clarity.
Clarity is the last thing you are holding onto and need to let go of.
Mother Teresa: "I've never had clarity, I've had trust."
Maybe he is teaching us to let go.
Third thing: hardest one to explain. It's a grand mystery. But it's a key to the Christian life. Our God is a suffering God. Jesus suffered for us so we don't have to, but that's only PART of it. It's something that he does WITH us, not just FOR us.
"I know what the Bible says I just don't always understand it"
God suffers with us. No matter what we are not alone.
We also suffer with him. It is how he meets us and how we meet him. Cohelet moments may be allowing you to connect with God is a way no other thing can.
Phil 3:10. Becoming like him in his death. It's a package deal. Can't have one without the other.
His life is a pattern for us.
Cohelet is not the problem child of the Bible. He is our hero. He is not broken, and neither are you. He doesn't need to be fixed. There is no quick fix. There is only walking with God daily, trusting, no matter what you feel like. You almost can't lose.
Friday, December 6, 2013
Litany of Humility
- A prayer that I need to remember daily.
- O Jesus! meek and humble of heart, Hear me.
- From the desire of being esteemed, Deliver me, Jesus.
- From the desire of being loved, Deliver me, Jesus.
- From the desire of being extolled, Deliver me, Jesus.
- From the desire of being honored, Deliver me, Jesus.
- From the desire of being praised, Deliver me, Jesus.
- From the desire of being preferred to others, Deliver me, Jesus.
- From the desire of being consulted, Deliver me, Jesus.
- From the desire of being approved, Deliver me, Jesus.
- From the fear of being humiliated, Deliver me, Jesus.
- From the fear of being despised, Deliver me, Jesus.
- From the fear of suffering rebukes, Deliver me, Jesus.
- From the fear of being calumniated, Deliver me, Jesus.
- From the fear of being forgotten, Deliver me, Jesus.
- From the fear of being ridiculed, Deliver me, Jesus.
- From the fear of being wronged, Deliver me, Jesus.
- From the fear of being suspected, Deliver me, Jesus.
- That others may be loved more than I,Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
- That others may be esteemed more than I,Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
- That, in the opinion of the world, others may increase and I may decrease, Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
- That others may be chosen and I set aside,Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
- That others may be praised and I unnoticed, Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
- That others may be preferred to me in everything, Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
- That others may become holier than I, provided that I may become as holy as I should, Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
- -Rafael Cardinal Merry del Val
Saturday, October 5, 2013
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand
In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
'Til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live
There in the ground His body lay
Light of the World by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ
No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
'Til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand





