Sophomore?!

It's hard to believe that on Tuesday I finished my fifth final, bringing an end to my freshman year. It's incomprehensible to me how it seems so long ago that the year started, yet it went by in a flash. Each day dragging on, I counted down the days to each vacation we had, and now that we're done, it's bittersweet. I guess most of life happens that way. 

As I've said before, I'll say again, I'm grateful for Eastern to have the privilege of studying there. The friends I've made and professors I had have made this first part of the journey not only possible for me but so enjoyable. It's encouraging to look back and see how much I've grown over this year, and I look forward to the coming years. 

These three days since the semester has ended have been strange yet wonderful. Strange because I feel free as bird, studies no longer taking all my time and not living by the moment-by-moment mindset where my mind is focused on the next assignment due. Yet I don't quite know what to do with or particularly like having this free time because it's a mindset adjustment to enjoy it and not feel like I'm wasting time.

I've spent these past few days with my family in Philly, and we've kept quite busy. On Wednesday we went to the Franklin Institute with Sarah and her friend Bekah, and their combined 8 kids. My friend Claire came along. I think we had as much fun as the kids.

On Thursday we went to the Philly Zoo which was a great time. Again I think I love the animals as much as the kids! 

a fun bunch of the Block and Crosby kids with Ben Franklin

Hallie watching the bears at the zoo!

Little Will in the small animal exhibit           Will the monkey

with the porcupines            

It's been a great first few days of summer... I'm thankful to call both Philly and Bear Creek home at this time. I'm heading to Maine for the month of June for a summer course through Eastern. I have plans to go to Honduras for a couple of weeks in the beginning of July before I start nannying at Andrew and Jen's for the rest of summer before sophomore year quickly comes again.

Here is a (very long!) photoblog that captures just a few of the very many blessing in my life during my days as a freshman.

Fall semester I volunteered at a preschool for my Service Learning. What a time I had with these kids and how much I learned from them! 

Shane Claiborne came to speak the first Sunday of the academic year. It was a good word to start the year off. And we chatted about our mutual friend, the one and only Fred Smith!

spent Fall Free Days with these four sweet kids of mine (ok my sister's)

my friends continually amaze me with their talent.. Chinese character for "love"

thankful to have a job taking care of Mabel and her brother Gustav

also thankful to have a job taking care of Isla and her three brothers. She reminds me so much of my niece Hallie!

when my friends remind me that He is greater than I

when I need a break from school and just want to be home...I'm scrolling through facebook or twitter and see a picture that makes my day.. literally. Action shot of 8 kids on a sled?!?! My family rocks.

my super awesome bathroom floor cleaners! Everyone should use these.

Dad flew up from Sanibel with the girls for Aunt Chara's memorial service, and Abby stayed the night with me.

when my friend Pavy in Honduras sends me pics of the new puppies born to our dogs at the Juvintud Para Cristo camp in Copan.

                                      family weekend in NYC

Show Hope annual fundraiser in Nashville... good word from Francis Chan 

THANKSGIVING break. Sisters and Mom

Freh, one of my two algebra tutors first semester. Oh the fun times we had.

Celebrating Claire's birthday with Zoe just before the end of the first semester

 Jimi came to visit me!

Christmas Eve dinner... fun times with cousin Sarah. Gotta love the Oechsle side of the family!

Sanibel over the New Year! Unforgettable memories made with my sisters

My Honduran family...

and dear friends...

 visited them all between semesters

 Then went to Elizabeth's wedding in Nicaragua!

Springtime on our campus... 

 

 Went to Zoe's dance class with her one afternoon... a highlight of spring semester

Spring break in Sanibel with family and Claire and cousin Ben

After Eastern's first annual 5k race this spring, we had a color dance to raise money for Operation Net!

With my freshman roomie Abbie on her birthday after some RED MANGO :)

Easter weekend in Bear Creek! Sarah and Dan were so nice to have me and Hannah, Claire and Thanny

Some nights homework parties turn into sleepovers

 Cara... my fellow Latin culture loving friend.

Greg.. what can I say about this hero of mine and leader of Kids for the Kingdom

I have a record of visiting the Bridgemans once a semester. My North American  "Honduran" family who now live in Hershey. In the fall I got to see Jay and Pauline and the girls and reminisce about our days down south while eating sopa de frijoles and baleadas!

This time Grace came all the way from Honduras to see us! Her first time to PA.

 Jon made came out from Cali for our cousins retreat at Stoneleigh this spring. Always thankful when I get to see him.

One of the hardest parts of this year (and life) was losing our dear Rich. Margie and Andrew and Suz are heroes to me.

Rich and Suz made a trip to PA to visit their old home and friends three months earlier. It was a most precious time together

another sadness and very difficult part was losing Melinda, my friend Grace's Mom. Grace and her six siblings and father are faithfully continuing to serve and trust God.. every day they challenge, encourage and inspire me.

(See this tribute to her on her blog here)

Nearing the end...sometimes we feel dead after chem lab.. that's it.

Thankful for Anj and Jen who I will get to nanny for full time for the second half of summer when baby #4 comes! Here they are at the party in which they found out it's a girl!

ice pack for my wisdom teeth removal. Just in time before finals.

Emily and Shami come to the US!!!

sleepover with Emily and Claire

all care packages from Mom are great... but some are awesome! (like when they include matching t-shirts!)

Dr. Thomas walks into class one day with 14 stitches and black eye... he tried to catch a football while riding his road bike across a grassy, muddy field! He is the greatest psych professor for so many reasons.

when Dr. Acky wears his hat from the Republic of Georgia to class. I think he is the only reason I survived philosophy.

safety goggles and rubber gloves... last chem lab with my partners (beautifully photo bombed by the only two males in the entire lab)

MIDNIGHT breakfast the day before finals week starts

another reason Eastern rocks- they bring therapy dogs for students to de-stress  during the day before finals start. This is Darla the beautiful Bernese Mountain Dog.

thankful for my study buddies and fellow nursing major girls.

 jumping in the river after a run with Zoe.. it's what we do best.

Celebrating the last weekend at school at the Phillies game with Megan and Abbie!

Our boys lacrosse team won 22-6 in the championship! I've never watched lacrosse before until this year, and it comes in as a close second to soccer. 

flower garden a the house where I babysit 

first day of summer!

I share room with this little one when I'm in Philly, so mornings are always happy :)

Today I celebrate the the 17th birthday of my sister Abigail, and the 2nd birthday of my friends Joni and George's twin babies, Journey and Eden. In the midst of the celebration these lives, I remember with gratefulness the life of a person very dear to my heart, Melinda. Today is her 42nd birthday, and although we mourn that she is not here with us to celebrate, we rejoice that she is home with the Father, that her faith is now her sight, that we will one day all be together where sadness and separation will be no more.

Melinda and her husband David are missionaries in the Dominican Republic. They are the parents of seven beautiful kids (Cooper, Jacob, Grayson, Sarah Joy, Tyler, Eli, and Naomi Rose), the five youngest pictured below, as their two eldest sons are living in the US and Guatemala. When I graduated high school in 2010, they were living in Guatemala. They quickly became like my family and I spent much of my time with them. They helped me acclimate to life there, and they really took me in as their own. Their eldest daughter Grace became like my sister and Melinda became like my Guatemalan mom. They had become a part of my family and always would be. Just weeks ago, Melinda became ill and passed away. I am forever grateful for the privilege of knowing her and her love for life and for the Lord. Although I don't understand why she left us so soon, and although I will have so many questions until I reach home, I know that He holds each one of us in His hands, and I can only see a very small part of the picture He's painting. Today I am grateful for Melinda's life, and I'm grateful that in the end, we will all be reunited again.

A Call to Anguish

In our second week of classes for the spring semester.

Haas fam had our 13th annual retreat this weekend in Philly. Always good to see everyone.

I think it's the coldest this week that it's been all winter.

Sister flew back home to Rwanda tonight :( 

Little brother having another surgery tomorrow morning in NYC. Thanks for continued prayers.

Sister goes for driver's license this weekend! First time I won't be the youngest driver in the fam.

I wish classes weren't keeping me from going to Hawaii to be at Rich's memorial service. He was like a second dad to me and Margie like a mom, Suzanna and Andrew like my own brother and sister. He was my first pastor and dedicated me at my birth. How grateful I am for them and how I want to be with them words cannot say. 

I will have to write a summary of my busy month between fall and spring semester. It was quite unforgettable. For now, I'll leave you with this video. 

Maybe my family will look like this one day. 

Grateful.

   Given the title, I'm going to start with Eastern. Basically, Eastern is God's gift to the world. Ok, maybe for you that's a stretch (ha), but for me, every single day I am grateful to be a student there. I can't believe that I finished my first semester two days ago (!). Overall, these past three and a half months have been the best time of my life that I can remember since being a care-free child. For God's timing, for the professors and friends and everything I'm learning and experiencing, I'm so grateful to call Eastern my school. I'm grateful to have completed this first semester, and that Eastern is teaching us to live a story that is so much bigger than ourselves.
   I'm grateful that Eastern is near Andrew and Jen (and their three babies and Ace, my pup), and that I can call their house my second home. 
   I'm grateful that when I go home to Bear Creek, Dan and Sarah and four happy kids are there to welcome me into my other second home.
   I'm grateful for my mom and dad who love me so much and pray for me everyday. They are cheering me on from wherever they are and wherever I am. I'm grateful that they had the desire to teach me to see the positive side of every situation instead of the negative, to find something to be thankful for in every moment.
   I'm grateful for four older siblings and four younger siblings. How each of them brings a different joy to my life and is so much a part of who I am.
   I'm grateful for a brother-in-law and sister-in-law. Love them like my own.
For my seven nieces and nephews (and one on the way!), words cannot express my gratefulness.
   For an extended family who loves each other and loves to have fun, I am grateful! Aunts, uncles, and cousins all over the world, always full of laughter and good stories when we are together.
   During this break between semesters, I'm grateful for a chance to slow down and spend time with family and friends who I don't normally get to see. This break I'm going to visit friends in Danville, Hershey, Sanibel (FL), Nicaragua, and Honduras. These are just a few of the places where dear friends lives, and some of these places are home to me.
   My sister Emily is coming home from Rwanda. Can I even express how grateful I am to see her?
   Grateful for new running shoes and a body that has the ability to run and jump and dance.
   Grateful for laughter over little things that sometime aren't even that funny, but they are funny to us. We laugh till we cry and can't breath and fall on the ground with hurting stomaches. 

   Above all I am thankful for Jesus because He is the reason that I am grateful for all of this. Grateful because even if I had nothing else, He would be enough. The reason I can love is because He loves me, the reason I can live is because He lives in me. Without Him I have no passion and no purpose, and because of Him I have life with joy and eternal hope. I'm grateful for the times that I'm reminded that life wasn't meant to be so complicated, it was meant to be simple because Jesus is more than enough. I need simple food and simple clothes, and I need to find my joy in Him and the people He has given me. I am a part of His eternal story, a story that is so much bigger than myself, and I am so humbled and grateful that I am even a small of it.

And while we're on the topic of gratefulness, check out this latest blog post from one of my favorite writers. 

As we close out 2012 and come into a new year, I pray that you find joy in the simple things in life that make it so meaningful.

"Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus."

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

"The Spirit of the LORD is upon me, for he has anointed me to bring Good News to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim that captives will be released, that the blind will see, that the oppressed will be set free, and that the time of the LORD's favor has come."

Luke 4:18-19

beautifully broken

   i want to share an unedited account of my week so far...

   i came back to school on sunday evening from a five day thanksgiving break at home at my sister sarah and brother-in-law dan's house. great time of laughter, good food, sunny runs around the lake, and lots of sleep. i came back a little stressed out about being able to finish out my last few weeks of the semester really well, and that was already on top of being frustrated at myself for having a negative attitude my last night at home and taking it out on the kids (my little nieces and nephews). moreover, i came back to find that my wallet was not in my dorm and nowhere to be found. would i have to get a new license, credit, and debit card? i was trying to book flights for christmas break and spring break and things were not quite going my way. because of all this and my already negative attitude, every other little things was getting me so annoyed.

   that night i got practically no old testament homework done and i felt very unaccomplished. i sat on the sofa across from my friend in the lounge to complain to him about my life of unfortunate events. when i almost began to ramble off my mishaps, i realized how ridiculous it was in the grand scheme of life... my friend told me that it's truly not a big deal... don't sweat the small stuff. God is still good. the problem wasn't my problems... it was me. my attitude and priorities were in the wrong place. since when did not having my wallet become more important than trusting God? 

   i remembered when just a couple days before moving back to the US from honduras, i left my iphone in a taxi. i had almost gone the whole year without losing anything really important, and then i blew it. of course i freaked out, knowing the chances of me getting it back were slim to none. let's be honest, that phone was my safety net, my connection to the world, and i didn't want to lose it. soon enough i gave it to God and stopped worrying about it, knowing He'd give it back to me if i was supposed to have it. very long story made short, twelve hours later the phone was returned to me. my trust in God grew a lot more than i imagined through that little incident, and i no longer held quite so tightly to my material possessions... until i lost my wallet and freaked out in the same way (only this time more internally). after talking about it that night as i said before, i gave it God and realized that if i was supposed to have my wallet then i would get it back, and if not, it obviously wasn't necessary. the next afternoon i found out from panera bread that they had it and i remembered that i left it there before break. 

   i believe God is allowing these little frustrations to occur because it's reminding me where my priorities lie. i am able to see if i just say that He is more than enough for me, or if i really believe that and live that. when i get caught up with school and life, things that don't matter become big distractions. the more time i spend with God, the more i realize that He is all that matters... it was never about what i wanted or thought i needed.
   yesterday at chapel our guest speaker Rev. Dr. Charles McNeil spoke on faith and doubt. as the service was closing, he said that we don't have to have a perfect faith to be touched by Jesus...the only way to keep real faith is to admit our doubts and struggles. on monday night i was talking with a friend about what i've been going through and learning this week as we ran laps in the cold darkness around the soccer field, and i expressed my frustration at myself for my attitude and the way i took it out on her and other people. she reminded me that we should be grateful that we have each other to keep accountable and that it's evident that the Holy Spirit is working in me because i see these things in me and hate them. in our brokenness we can beautifully magnify Him and remember it was never about us anyway.

November 11, 1994 was the day I became a big sister for the first time. My mom gave birth to baby number 6, our little brother Matthew Jeremiah. When he was born, we didn't know that he would only be with us for just one month because he had a heart condition that could not be fixed. Today Matthew would be celebrating 18 years! Although his life on earth was short, I have the hope of seeing him again on the other side of eternity, where there will never again be death or separation!

You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.

Psalm 139:16

I was a proud big sister :)